Get it all out here man. I’m telling you. Yeah, you’re being somewhat of a prick. It’s cool. You’re not the first or last dude to get the D. At this point you gotta choose who’s gonna win.
Put your kids first.
Keep your pecker in your pants.
Don’t give her the pleasure of pissing you off.
She’s your business partner now. Man up. Your kids are suffering.
Act so that her friends/family wonder “what the hell is her problem”, not yours.
Don’t ruin events for the kids.
You don’t get to pick her new bo-bo.
Like I said, been down that road. My ex and I are lock-step with our kids. There’s no games. Her husband is a good dude, he told me that his place is to support us both. Adores my kids and they him. Schit man....he replaced my well pump the day before Thanksgiving and said “no charge for family”. We’ve done it so right I should write a friggin book. My only regret is breaking a contract with the big man upstairs. If that’s not your thing, I’m not here to preach.
So, if you’re just going through the schit, it gets better but takes time. If you’re really a prick, best wishes...because it’s gonna be all uphill from here.