So I finally decided after decades that I had had enough and have been fooling myself. In spite of the alcohol I had a great career which I thankfully retired from and have a loving wife and grown successful and happy daughters. All that being said I was still flirting with disaster with drinking. A friend asked me the other day if I ever read this thread on SOL. I told him "yeah, I think I read it once a long time ago." So today I bring up page one and there I am 14 years ago trying to give advice that at the time I must have believed. Looking back now I have to laugh at myself. What I wrote is bull**** that I was telling myself for the last 14 years since that post. I have made the decision to finally quit and I know in my head this time is different. God willing I have begun a new chapter in my life that I will sustain until I depart this earth.