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. We lost the home we were in and had to move to a much smaller home that I hated, but we wanted to keep the kids in the same school.
We talked things out and she said she would never do it again. She claims that she had a nervous breakdown when her mom died and then my issues, although she started this thing the day I started my issues. I told her if she ever did it again, that I was going to divorce her. We had 3 kids together. I couldn't just walk away from my kids and family and everything I had, plus I was still devistated by this antibiotic. I was so bitter at her. I HATED her. I began to swear. Then God spoke to me and said "I can't bless that". I was in the store and I was thinking about what she did to me. I was so angry. God said "Do you want to help people"? I said "Yes", then He said "Then you have to be forgiving". Another time I was upset and called her a whore. God said "She's not a whore". I couldn't believe He said she wasn't one after what she did. We fought like crazy. I couldn't turn my back on her because my trust in her is now 100% gone forever. She would go into the bedroom and lock it when she was upset. I knew she wanted to talk to these bastards that she had been with. She was going to leave. I got in her way and she punched me in the stomach. The stress was unbearable, especially with my heath issues. I would lose my temper and swear. I woke up in the morning to a voice that said "You are upsetting the Lord, please stop swearing". Then another time after swearing I heard a voice in the morning that said "Don't Swear". The stress I was under was unbelievable and it was more than I could bear really. I was so angry, thougths of murdering those men would have to be pushed out of my mind as I knew it wasn't something I could do. One day we were driving and I felt like I could no longer live with it and was going to divorce her.
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